My heart is yours
Yours, my dear
Though you don't want it
Keep it near

Do you know how hard it is to only have one class with your best friend, but then on top of that, you sit all the way across the effing room from each other?

It's so not fair.

I know I need to stop thinking about myself in this situation, but you have no idea how hard it is for me to watch you get close to every other girl on the planet while you push me away.

friends > enemies

I sit and I worry,
We haven't talked in days.
What else can I do,
What more can I say?
This isn't alright,
This isn't okay.
You're supposed to be my friend,
Not my enemy.

I'm sick of this.

I can't believe I actually thought he didn't know. But now that I know he does, that just pisses me off. And makes it harder on me.

So much for posting a blog every day this year. Oops.

We have a snow day today. So basically, I got in this huge fight with my mom last night because of school work that was due today, and it was all pointless. Now my eyes and nose just hurt from crying so much last night.

Only, she don't know she wasn't even the reason I was crying. He was. And that's pathetic. But I've needed to cry, and I haven't been able to, so when I started last night, I just couldn't stop.

1/1/10

Happy New Year, everyone! I hope your night was as good as mine. I freaking love my friends.

So, normally, I'm not into the whole resolution thing, because fact is, I never do it. EVER. But I figured I might as well come up with some anyway.

My number one: TAKE MORE PICTURES.
I have almost no pictures from last year, and it's really upsetting sometimes, to know I only have memories to remember it by. So this year, I'm getting evidence that I actually live!

Some more are just the basic ones. Get into shape. Start eating better. And spend WAY less time on the computer. Actually go outside every once and a while. That should get better once I can actually drive, which should be before this summer! :D