JONAS 3D

it was...amazing. it was spectacular. it was inspiring. joe took his shirt off, and i almost started crying, lmao. like really. i'm not the kind of person who would go see something like that and sing and dance along with the music. i didn't for the hannah montana one, but this one, i don't think there was one line i wasn't singing along too or clapping my hands with. those three boys have such and effect on me, and i'm glad it's them i have for role models and not anyone else that wouldn't be a good role model. they are a big part of who i've become and who i'm becoming, and i wouldn't like it any other way.

♥

latley.

so, i've been reading my bible more and more. i love how i can just flip to any page, and the answer to my problem is right there. it's incredible. i'm growing closer and closer with God, and i just love the feeling. i know i'll always have someone watching over me.

sleepy.

i need to go to sleep, but there's something that won't let me. i hate that i can never sleep even when i want to.

i don't really know what else to say, so i think i'm gonna go try and sleep. ugh.

wooh!

i'm on a wii, haha! and this is rather hard to type so this isn't going to be very long. anyway, i'm with fletcherrrrr, and i think she fell asleep, haha.

i want a wii now. these things are sweet! ♥

well...

i don't know. i'm confused, and i'm happy, but i'm sad, and just well confused. i don't like it so much.

oh no no no...

old feelings...GO AWAY! i don't want you here.
>:P

THAT BOY DRIVES ME NUTS. he's like a stinkin' rollercoaster, and i don't want to be on it anymore. it also doesn't help that i never know if he's just messing with my head, or if my head is messing with me. ARG.

wellllll, i went to the basketball game tonight. it was weird going to a tuesday game, cause now it feels like a friday, haha. freshman won, YAY! i never thought i would actually witness that. jv won, and i missed the big last second three-pointer that won it. and the varstiy kicked butt, as USUAL. i've also found if i don't get into the game, i'm really bored. so, i actually like watching basketball now.

♥

i'm just worried now.

i've been coughing for over a week now, and it just seems to get worse. i've been to the doctor's and they've given me like two different medicines, neither working that great. it's scaring me, and i don't like it. pray for me? i know i've been praying like no other for this to go away.

i really want to go to bed. i'm freaking exhausted, but sheri wants me to wait until she gets out of the shower, plus the stupid dog peed all over my bed and our room, so it reeks in there. ughh, it's gross.

we took these compatibility tests at school, and so it took the whole school and compared it with everyone. we just got the results back today, and dude, i have a bunch of creepers and nerds on mine. it made me laugh though, cause there's one kid on my list that i've though was pretty cute and sweet for a while now, and then another one that i would have never guessed but now that i think about it, that wouldn't be too bad either. otherwise, i totally got jipped, haha.

i love my parents. it's taken me a while to get past my "dude, you're ruining my life" phase, but now i've come to realize they really do love me, and just annoy me and get on my case because they love me.

MY FRIENDS, are finally becoming friends with each other. it's making me happy, and glad that they can finally get along. thank you lord.

well, i'm gonna go yell at sheri to go get out of the shower, cause i am butt-loving tired. night. ♥

doctors are always wrong with me.

like seriously, the last few times i've gone to the doctors they're always wrong. like i went for an eye irritation. they said it was pink eye, turns out it was just eye allergies. i went this time, and they think you automatically have chest congestion if you have a cough, well i don't. i think i would know if my chest was congested, it's ONLY my throat, and i keep telling them that. it's just irritated! i don't need mucinex d, cause it doesn't work. UGH. i just want this cough gone. hopefully the prescription stuff works. otherwise, i might just kill my throat, haha.

DANGGGG.

we're already starting scheduling for next year. high school isn't supposed to go this fast. ARG.

i seriously think that my doctor is on something, because this medicine hasn't worked at all. like i'm coughing worse now than i was without the medicine. i swear if they give me giant pills to take, i'm not doing it. i refuse.

new bands i'm into:
hey monday
the downtown fiction

CHECK THEM OUT. like seriously, amazingness on a stick is what that is. (;

♥

ugh, ugh, ugh.

i hate being sick with a dying passion. it's sucks beyond belief. i guess i should be glad that it's just bronchitis and not mono. i swear, our school is like a disease fest. once one person gets sick, EVERYONE gets sick. it's unavoidable.

well great. he's had some conversation on facebook with someone, and i'm pretty sure he thinks i'm a creepy stalker. i've been in panic mode since. whatever. it's about time that i got over him anyway. obviously it's not going to happen, or else it already would have. you know, this just makes me feel so much better. UGH.

i give up on being a teenager. it's too hectic, and tiring, and just STUPID sometimes.

You will always be there,

and i'll always know that. i know i haven't grown as close to You as i've wanted. i've been trying my best to crack down, but sometimes it just seems everything is in the way. next time, just run me into a wall and let me know You want to talk. (:

winter formal

was not as good as i'd have wished it to be. the music sucked, up until the last hour, everyone dances super slutty at our school, so it's no fun when random people come up to you and start grinding on you, and the ONE person i wanted to be there, never showed up. it pretty much killed me, because i actually had the guts to ask him to dance with me, and that will probably never happen again. plus, i'm not as over another certain someone as i thought i was, and seeing him everywhere i looked didn't help at all. so basically, i didn't have much fun for the first three hours, and then i just kind of got lost in the music, came-to that he wasn't coming, and danced my heart out. so, overall; somewhat enjoyable. i'm glad i went.

on other news. i'm as sick as a dog. my throat has been killing me, and i have an extremely weird cough, that i hate. my homework that's due tomorrow hasn't even been started. i've been eating sweedish fish, cookies, and drinking mt dew all day, and have a feeling that i'm going to have some stomach issues later. yay.

well yeah. i'm going to go start my outlines, and do my math. goooooodnight. ♥

blah, BLAH, blah.

i never feel like anything i put in these things are important. maybe it is, maybe it isn't, but i guess i'll still write them. it gives me something to do in this boring house.

well, winter formal is this saturday. i'm kind of nervous, and i don't really know why. i wasn't nervous for homecoming at all. it's frustrating. plus i have like three different friends that want me to do something with them, but they all pretty much hate each other, so i can't get them to do something together, with me. i don't know what to do, and i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. i also don't know what i'm gonna wear for shoes, or jewelry, or if anyone can even do my hair. way to go jessie on this last minute planning.

i learned a new song on piano. it's thinking of you by katy perry. it's simply a beautiful song. something i would have never expected from her, but i love it anyway. plus, it's really fun to sing, because it's right in my range. speaking of piano, i desperatly need to get back into lessons. i really want to learn more, just minus the lessonbooks. those things should be against the law, really. i have this sudden urge to learn how to play guitar now too, but i don't know where or from who i could learn. i might try and teach myslef though, so wish me luck, haha.

i don't know what else to talk about. it's been a pretty long and boring week. that's gone by way to slow. and that's just never fun. but yay! tomorrow's friday, and i'll probably go to the basketball game. it's kind of tradition with our friends to go to a game beofre a school dance, cause there's always something going on. fun, fun. ♥

everyone skipped out on me.

so now i'm gonna be the only one feeling ridicoulous with my neon blue tights at the dance on saturday, which for some reason i'm nervous about. i think it's because i've been thinking about asking him to dance. i'm also worried that i'll look stupid, which almost never happens, so i'm thinking that's signaling NOT to wear the tights.

oh whatever. i'll figure this out later. i need to go to bed now. ♥

oh wow.

hello february. i didn't know you were already here. (:

i also just figured out earlier today that it was superbowl sunday, haha. but i really don't care. i just have one thing to say...GO CARDINALS! KICK SOME STEELER BUTT!

yeah, i'm glad someone told me though, BECAUSEEEE, that means that heroes is on tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY! :DDDDDDDD i'm so excited, obviously. haha.

anyway, i have to go study and do my homework from monday, haha. i love snowdays. the only thing that sucks though is that now we have to go two extra days at the end of the year. booooooo. >:P