I know you say that you don't like me, but those looks you give me keep me alive. I know that my friends bother you, but I like the fact that they give me a reason to talk to you. I know that I stare too much, but I think you're beautiful...inside and out. I know you say that I'm too young, but I wish you would give me a chance.

There's a part of me that hopes someday you will, but until then, I need to move on.

Late night at the park.

I spent the night with Fletch last night. We went to the park at like 9:30, and played baseball. Then, Matt got the brilliant idea to walk to Kroger and get a slip 'n' slide. Haha, it was great. Unfortunately, I couldn't go on it because we would have gotten in trouble by Fletch's dad. Still, it was fun to just watch.

Oh, and Happy Birthday Alex Marshall. You're my inspiration.

Now you're rounding up your army,

turning all your troops on me.
Telling lies just to feel happy,
but I won't retaliate.

I love Hocking Hills. It just makes you realize how beautiful this earth really is. It makes you put down your material things, and it makes you feel small. But it's a kind of small that's just amazing.

This picture is my favorite. We were standing like three feet from the ledge of this place. It just didn't even look real. Nothing was moving and it seemed like there was some backdrop in front of us. Being there was amazing. Especially with Fletcher along. We even met some cute boys, haha. (; I will never outgrow camping. It's just too fun.

I just read Alex DeLeon's blog. It makes me think. About everything. About how I'm going to grow up one day, and hit a rut. I'm going to feel lost, I'm going to feel alone, but that's just life. As long as I'm surrounded by people I love and people who inspire me, I'll be okay.

What I think he doesn't realize is how much he inspires all of us. All of his fans. His story, his life, his dream. It's all an inspiration, to me at least. It makes me think about how badly I want to chase my dream. No matter how impossible it may seem right now, it's just something I want to do. I want to sing, and play piano, and play guitar in front of screaming fans. I know that sounds crazy, but I can't see myself doing anything else. It's my dream.

Alex DeLeon, you inspire me.

This week has been so fun. I finally got to hang out with Fletcher, for the first time in what feels like forever. I spent the night at her house and we rode our bikes into town. We tanned too, even though it was pretty cloudy. It's just something we've always done, haha. Then she spent the night at my house because her mom had to go to Kentucky. I missed it, a lot.

I'm going up to my dad's tomorrow, well later today. I always have fun in Cincinnati, so this weekend should be pretty awesome.

I just can't wait until Tuesday. New Jonas CD! :D

Another day of nothing. My any chance of doing anything was ruined because of my best friends dad. Oh well, I still get to go over to her mom's house tomorrow, so at least that's something.

I hate the fact that I'm doing what I said I wouldn't do. Which is spend everyday inside. And other than Katie's party, that's all I've done.

I guess it's nice to know that I can keep myself up for 36 hours on only three hours of sleep. Not that I'm very sure that will ever benefit me...ever. Haha.

I'm seriously awake, but know the second I go lay down in my bed I'll be out. So I think that's what I'm planning to do. Because I realllllly want to sleep. Like badly.

Well, three days of summer and it's been raining. Ugh. Oh well. Tomorrow, I'm going over to Katie's house, and we're having a burn party. HANNAH'S COMING HOME! And she doesn't know that all of us will be over there when she gets there. It's gonna be amazing.

Whitney's party on Monday was amazing. Really kicked off summer for me. But since it's rained all day, everyday since, it hasn't been very fun.

I'm still determined to make this the best summer ever. I won't give that up easily.

SUMMER.

I thought I was going to cry today. I don't know why, but it just hit me two minutes before the bell rang that my freshman year was over. It's unreal how fast this year went. It feels like we should only be about halfway through the school year. I don't know what I'm going to do this summer. All I know is that I don't want to spend a single day inside.

Partyin' it up tonight. Can't wait! Haha.