I declare today, as the best day ever.

So, my dad called me at like two today.
"Hey, I just got off the phone with your mom...about that Cab concert."
*I scream* "ANNNNNNND????!!!!!!?"
"You're going, because I'm taking you."
*Screams some more*
So I'm going! The tickets are already bought, and I couldn't be happier.

Well then, Mom gets home and she asks what we want for dinner.
"How about Chinese?" I say.
"Sure! I'll call and order!"
So then I'm like REALLY REALLY happy.

Sheri's been talking to someone who was at the Idol tour and she called.
"Matt's really close to us! Here, I'll put you on speaker."
So I'm like screaming like a little fan girl, and he finally gets close enough, and Ryanne says "Say hi to Jessie!"
And I hear, "Hey Jessie, waddup, it's Matt!"
*I scream...really loud...into the phone*
"Wish you could be here!"
So yeah, Matt Giraud from American Idol said hi to me over the phone.

THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER.

So, I pretty much got a blow to the chest today. My mom's thinking about not letting me go to The Cab concert. It's just something that I've been looking forward to since May, and I haven't gotten a complete answer out of her. I asked her today, and she said no. I pretty much silently lost and and cried my eyes out in my room. (Yeah, yeah. I'm weird like that.)

Now she's trying to convince me to let her go with me. I'm also kind of sad that she doesn't trust me enough to go to a concert with one of my friends without an adult.

I don't even know how I'm feeling right now. I'm hoping and praying that she'll let me go. I don't think she knows how much seeing them, and possibly meeting them would mean to me.

as i sit and stare at the ceiling
wishing you were mine at last
i just can't help but have this feeling
i don't want to be part of your past

baby, can you tell me what time it is?
i say it's half past time you gave me a chance
don't be afraid of what people say, alright?
it's only you, me and these stars tonight

i know they talk and don't approve
they say i'm not the one for you
only you can make that move
prove them wrong and just be true

baby, can you tell me what time it is?
i say it's half past time you gave me a chance
don't be afraid of what people say, alright?
it's only you, me and these stars tonight

i've fallen for you, what else can i do?
i'm head over heals, headed for these waters

baby, can you tell me what time it is?
i say it's half past time you gave me a chance
don't be afraid of what people say, alright?
it's only you, me and these stars tonight
baby, we could fly

A SONG, A SONG, A SONG! I haven't been able to write a song in so long. I feel so much better. Thoughts, opinions, title ideas? Comment me.

5.

So I guess the rules to this are, you pick five people, you never say their names, but you write in honesty what you'd want to say to them in a random order? Who knows, but here goes.

1. I write lame songs about you in the middle of the night. You're on my mind 24/7. Your smile is the most beautiful thing on this earth. It bothers me that you won't give me the time of day, but yet I still go after you. I hope you'll be my friend, if not anything else. That would mean the world to me.

2. We never talk anymore. I still love you dearly, but it's like every conversation seems so forced. I wish I could crush whatever is keeping us apart, but even I can't figure it out.

3. I'm so glad we're friends. Even best friends. If I dare say that. I love that I can come to you for anything and you'll always put a smile on my face. I just wish that I didn't have to lose a friend to gain one. I still love you.

4. You're my best friend, but ever since then...we haven't been the same. I just miss the crazy, loud, off the chain best friends we used to be. It's getting there, but I don't know what's making it so hard for me to drop it. You're my favorite person in this world, and I just wish none of that stupid stuff would have ever happened.

5. It's hard to deny feelings for you. You're my best friend. Yes, you crawl under my skin, but there's a spark that's always there. You're the first guy I've ever been completely confident around. I love you for accepting me for who I am. I love our friendship to pieces, and I love you.

Haha. I'm totally wearing a "him" outfit today. Made me smile.

Besides that, today was wonderful.

Oh, who am I kidding? Not my heart.

As of July 3, 2009...I have my permit. Yay! Driving is so fun, but it also scares the crap out of me. I feel so good, but at the same time I go into panic mode, because I feel like I could crash or lose control at any second. It's new for me, and I'm not sure if I like it quite yet.

This weekend was an amazing one. Even though it rained on Saturday for six straight hours, we all still found ways to have fun. Four-wheeling in the pouring rain was probably the highlight, since our plans of slip 'n' sliding got ruined, haha. The fireworks were kind of lame, but hey, our towns lucky to even have them.

Now it's back to being bored all week. Oh well, church camp is in like two weeks. It's gonn' be fun!